Well heyy.

Two nights ago, as Josh and I were driving to Lodi, I realized something weird. The whole day prior, I'd been so excited to go with him and see his family and the thought occurred to me, "Ah sweet, Lodi! Relaxation! Ah but wait, we'll just have to say goodb...WAIT. There ARE no 'buts'! And no more 'goodbyes'!" Since we did long distance for over two years, it was so customary to love going to Lodi, but hating it too...since it always ended with a trip to the Sac Airport, me crying my eyes out at the airport, driving back to Lodi by myself to spend the rest of the day with his family then drive back to Fresno...then see Josh again three months later.
Wash, rinse, repeat.
We did all that for so long...that it became ingrained in my mind that that was normal. And it was for a really long time. Which is why last night was so sweet. We're finally starting to break out of the old mentality and realize this is life now. We're at that place in our lives and in our relationship that this is it. I'll let you speculate on what that entails. Heh.

I'd like to talk to whoever says that long distance relationships never work out. Never, eh?